[Eighteenth Canon] : [Audio | Locked from Hostiles | Backdate - October 5th (BEFORE Tei's post) ]

[trapsound]

(ooc: I herped so hard I derped. I realized I should have put the source of Tei's upset and reason for posting BEFORE her actual post... but then I didn't. So, here's a sad Ritsu singing only half a song. Translation and full song (as sung by Miku) are here. And Miku has done this one once before, but mun gave me permission to use it again. )

[just as the second verse starts, Ritsu's voice cracks, and he stops.]

... I can't--...

[the music continues for another second before the comm shuts off]

Comments

[350pointsmile.livejournal.com]

What's going on?

[25tontrap.livejournal.com]

[stuck on audio, because he doesn't want anyone to see him cry. Not that it helps the fact that it can be heard very clearly, what with the sniffling and all]

I just want Sai home...

[350pointsmile.livejournal.com]

Has there been any word on...well any of it?

[Comforting is NOT her strong suit. Just ask Scott. OH WAIT YOU CAN'T BECAUSE HE'S NOT HEEEEEEEERE]

[25tontrap.livejournal.com]

No... nothing...

[hiccups]

I should be stronger than this... I can't just fall apart without him...

[350pointsmile.livejournal.com]

Sometimes you gotta fall apart so you can pull yourself back together ya know?

[25tontrap.livejournal.com]

What happens if you can't pull yourself back together, though?

[350pointsmile.livejournal.com]

Then uh...

...then you pick up as many pieces as you can and hold onto them tight.

[25tontrap.livejournal.com]

... sounds easier said than done...

[350pointsmile.livejournal.com]

No kidding.

Sounds like you've been stuck in your head for too long though. You need a break from it. What do you usually do to relax?

[badass-bunny.livejournal.com]

Ritsu-chan...

[25tontrap.livejournal.com]

Kazma-kun... sorry you had to hear that...

[badass-bunny.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry...I failed you back then...

[25tontrap.livejournal.com]

You didn't fail me, Kazma-kun...

[badass-bunny.livejournal.com]

I did...like I failed Obaa-chan...

[25tontrap.livejournal.com]

You didn't fail me, Kazma! [something crashes and shatters in the background] I failed Sai!

[badass-bunny.livejournal.com]

Ritsu-chan. You didn't fail Sai-san.

[25tontrap.livejournal.com]

I failed him... and everyone... the moment I ever worked with that horrible person...

[drills-andbread.livejournal.com]

I... [There is nothing he can say to make this better and he hates that.] I'm sorry.

[25tontrap.livejournal.com]

Ted...

[quiet hiccup]

I-it's...

[no. it's not okay.]

There's nothing that can be done about it...

[drills-andbread.livejournal.com]

That...doesn't mean I can't try. I won't give up on any of you, Ritsu, I won't.

[25tontrap.livejournal.com]

I know... but we can't just go chasing after Finitevus...

[drills-andbread.livejournal.com]

We can, and we will. If it's what has to be done, it's what has to be done.

[25tontrap.livejournal.com]

You can't! You'll wind up broken or worse, dismantled!

[drills-andbread.livejournal.com]

[There's a pause. Then, in a very firm tone, he speaks again.]

If it helped bring Sai back...If it helped my family, then I would accept that fate.

[The transmission cuts out after that.]

[25tontrap.livejournal.com]

Ted--! ... TED!

...Fuck...